January 27, 2015

Plans awry


Isn't this making a lovely baby blanket? I'll need to frog the top and bottom rows and continue with the squares, but it seems like such a sweet blanket.

The problem?

This was meant to be a vest. I was working from the main part of the vest in both directions. The top was going to be the same square but only in the linen, which you can see I had started, but somewhere along the way the yarn simply refused to go along with my vision. And I don't want to wear a vest which looks like a blanket.

I still want to make a vest! And maybe it was the choice of yarn. Or the squares? But this will not be my vest. A long one, if you were wondering.

But it might make a very pretty blanket.

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January 26, 2015

And there was that moment...

Recently I have been made aware that what I thought was... wasn't. Maybe it was my own fault. Maybe I assumed the silence meant approval. Maybe I shouldn't have needed the approval anyway. But suddenly you realize the approval you thought you had all along was not really there.

Now, here's the craziness factor. One thing I thought I had approval about is no longer a player in the game. The other thing I thought I had approval about I knew deep down I didn't.

But somehow when you see the disapproval taken out on someone else, a little part of you takes it personally as well. Because their choices were/are your choices, and you see the negativity towards both.

Personally, I apologized to the one who had been the receiver of the disapproval, and thankfully for them the approval/disapproval in this instance is not an issue.

But then I had to decide. Would it be an issue for me?

offense is my choice

My mind has had all sorts of imagined conversations. I have heard all sorts of "truths" about how these people feel (made up in my head, mind you). I took offense and only shared it only with others who felt the same way I did.

The truth is I will never ever confront this situation, or those people, but I will let things lie dormant because I can't force their approval. I can't make them change their mind or think differently. I. so. can't.

But thankfully in the interim between taking offense and now, I have realized I do have a choice in this matter. I can be mad, upset, and frustrated that the approval I thought I had wasn't really there. I can be discouraged and try to work harder to receive this approval. Or, and that is a big "or" friends, I can release the offense. I can appreciate we are all different and wont see things the same. I can laugh that some are stuck in their own shoes, and try not to be a person who is. I can breathe, and keep working towards my own goals, grateful for those which have been achieved, and so full of gratitude towards those who really do support me and believe in what I do.

It's our choice, right?  I can either accept what they can give or be offended it's not what I wanted.

Ps. I do not pretend this to be an easy process. I will have to face this choice over and over again until I have fully released the hurt and anger over the situation. Until I have forgiven. Until I once again accept them for who they are.

I see it, I do.

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January 23, 2015

This Sunday...

“’It is because of God’s grace that we have the strength, courage and motivation to work among these people, to share with them, to hug them, to love them and to care for them,’” Pastor Jiva  

Matthew 10
5 These twelve Jesus sent out with the following instructions: “Do not go among the Gentiles or enter any town of the Samaritans. 6 Go rather to the lost sheep of Israel. 7 As you go, proclaim this message: ‘The kingdom of heaven has come near.’ 8 Heal the sick, raise the dead, cleanse those who have leprosy, drive out demons. Freely you have received; freely give."

Jesus still sends people out to cleanse those who have leprosy. Did you know?

Kishori is one of many who has lived with leprosy. She struggled to get to the hospital for cleansing and treatment, until one day missionaries through Gospel for Asia showed up at her door to clean her wounds. And they showed up the next day, and the next, and continued doing so. Each time they showed up at her door they would come to cleanse her wounds and tell her and her family about Jesus. Kishori is now healed from leprosy but still receives help from Gospel of Asia. The missionaries also help others on a daily basis who are stricken with leprosy.

Sunday is World Leprosy Day. I know how we can all get sidetracked and distracted on the weekends, so I wanted to let you all know about it now. Not everyone is called to go into the fields to help those with leprosy, but we can still help those who are sent.

Click here to read all of Kishori's story.
Click here to know best how to pray for those who are sent, and those with leprosy.
Click here to learn more about Gospel for Asia's Leprosy Ministry.

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