February 18, 2016

I simply can't do more than what is in front of me.

Last week Captain and I ran twenty miles. It's truly crazy. When I first began running over three years ago I couldn't run 1/10th of a mile with out stopping and walking for a distance. I will admit that we totally did a 2min run/1min walk through the 20 miles, because that distance needs extra special treatment. It was the first time we had run that distance, and I don't think I will be running a long distance like that again before we hit the marathon. It's a little scary, if I don't say so myself, but the circumstances demand it.


February 17, 2016

I'm not going to try to catch up

Yesterday when I woke it felt like a month of Sundays had passed since I had followed my routine. It was hard, and the bed and sleep kept me in place longer that I liked. The alarm had been ignored, Captain had left for work, and my mind dug feverishly for the motivation to get started. It hadn't been a bad weekend at all. Just full. And long. And so I felt I was starting all over kicking things in gear trying to be the best me I could.


February 10, 2016

Maybe it's as much how we live as what we know.

I just reread my notes on Proverbs 1-9, and am on my third cup of coffee. I also have been surfing through Facebook some this morning. My brain is trying to take it all in. Is there a balance to this world, or is there a diving into the deep end and simply letting go of the rest?


February 8, 2016

Proverbs 4-7: it's a choice

Last night I began to sink. This morning I felt stuck. I slept in but thankfully only by half an hour. I made myself get up. It wasn't what I wanted to do. I read my joy devotional and wondered how one held onto joy in the midst of circumstances, relationships, and feelings. My #joyinthemorning was no where to be seen. Then I was reviewing the Proverbs chapters and was reminded that it's all a choice.


February 5, 2016

Proverbs 3: I don't know it all

The first time I read through Proverbs 3 I was stuck on the phrase "tree of life" found in verse 18. Did you know that the phrase is only used 11 times (NIV)? Three times in Genesis, four times in Revelations, and four times in Proverbs. This was fascinating to me.


February 4, 2016

I am who I am.

I sit drinking my coffee looking out the window at the gray world. There is a moment where the sunrise has started on the other side of the house so everything is lighter, but the colors haven't quite reached this part of the sky yet. This moment is gray. Is there a moment like this in summer or is it just winter when this happens? It doesn't take long for it to pass. In fact, before I can grab my camera and run out back into the chilled air the pink has already begun to creep in and the gray has been swept off the plants.


February 3, 2016

Proverbs 2: Internal,external, and active process

Yesterday I finished talking about Proverbs 1 saying that I have a choice in the matter. If I want to turn my back on God and His wisdom I have the ability to do that. I don't want to do that, so the next question would be how do I understand the fear of the Lord and find the knowledge of God. How do I even go about seeking it? 


February 2, 2016

Proverbs 1: We have a choice

The fear {respect, piety} of the LORD {Jehovah} is the beginning {what is first, chief, choice part} of knowledge {understanding, learning}; fools {one who mocks when guilty, one who is quarrelsome} despise {scorn, ridicule, show contempt for} wisdom {skill in life, trade, war, or spiritual things} and instruction {discipline, chastening, correction}. Proverbs 1:7


February 1, 2016

The beginning is a very good place to start.

I set my alarm last night. I don't have a horrible morning routine, except that I take forever to actually hit my feet on the floor. I thought an alarm might help. Day 1 - it did. It usually does day one, though, right? But I wont look for myself to fall, I'll just keep on, knowing some days will be harder.


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