Yesterday I had the amazing opportunity to skype with two different awesome women. One conversation was because I signed up for am exit coaching spot in Story 101, and the other was because I joined Story Sessions and they have an intro conversation. I looked forward to both calls tremendously and am so grateful to have had them.
The Story 101 coaching spot helped me a lot. For someone who still doesn't know exactly where she is going, to end the call feeling there is a path I just need to find it is huge. And how do you do it? You just keep going. Just keep writing. Change things. Play with ideas. *Move forward.* She gave me so much to think about and consider, but mostly it centered on simply being me.
The Story Sessions intro conversation was also full of information. It centered more on Story Sessions, how I came by it, and what, if any, questions I had about it. But there was also discussion about seasons of life, future plans, and being okay with not knowing where I am right now.
I was on a high last night, and felt hopeful and promising and confident. Then....
I woke up.
Have you ever heard of a vulnerability hangover? I really feel as if I have one of those today. The funny part was that I don't think I revealed any big secrets about myself, though simply telling people what I do, why I do it, and where my focus is can sometimes feel like a secret. In fact, as I am writing I realize that a few weeks ago I had two conversations about my writing, but instead of being confident and sure I was almost embarrassed about those things. Crazy, right? But I guess it's a good sign that I was able to talk about it all without the embarrassment this time. Or without complete embarrassment.
I should say, the reason for my embarrassment is that I fear I'm not good enough for what I want to do so the reason why I do it is null and void. I'm learning that while I do still have lots to learn that is NOT a bad thing. These opportunities are widening who I am because I am learning about others as well as myself.
But when my eyes opened this morning I did not want to get out of bed. Now, I haven't made it that far, considering I simply got some coffee, and grabbed my spot on the couch with my computer, but I'm moving. And I'm planning for today. And I'm not shutting the door.
There are some times where the hangover needs a day home with movies, or down time, and rest to rejuvenate. I'm learning that is taking care of me, and it is important. When I don't do that then I get frustrated, anxious, and that is when I truly want to throw the baby out with the bathwater. Now I know when I take care of me, more things actually do get done, and these feelings of quitting life do pass.
I learned this through these amazing women as well.
Cost of Story 101 - $165
Cost of Story Sessions - $13 a month
Cost of getting to know amazing women - priceless
The ability to know myself better - priceless