August 14, 2013

God worked on me this past weekend.

There came a moment last weekend... wait. That isn't necessarily true. There came a hundred moments in a time of two days that blended with a gazillion moments that came before which set my heart, changed my mind, and opened my eyes.

Have you ever experienced that? It's not that I was wandering before I went to Declare. Things seemed to be falling in place for me particularly well, actually. But there were still some open gaps, and some mixed thinking, and I really didn't expect that to change after 24 hours. But I underestimated what God can do when we step out.

You see, it truly was stepping out for me. Not just going to the conference but talking to people. I made an effort to talk to lots of people I did not know. I took opportunities which were like climbing Mt. Everest. I know I looked like little girl lost at times, but I was an adventurer, a pilgrim, a scout, and a researcher inside.

What did God do for me at Declare? He positioned me in such a place where:
  • I was allowed to see focus for my writing. He showed me who I could write for here at the blog, how I could continue my study, where it can go in the future, and what topic I could write about more often.
  • I realized that wanting others to read my writing isn't necessarily about fame and fortune. It's more about the fact that God has given me something I want everyone to hear, and so the further my reach the more who can hear it.
  • I was shown that believing in myself can make a difference in the smallest of things, but if I don't believe in what I am saying and what I am doing then why should anyone else.
Oh, it would be easy for me to fall prey to negative thinking and "woe is me" attitude. It IS easy for me to fall prey to that. But having these realizations come straight up against that. When the voice says, "Your writing doesn't make sense" I see the focus. When the voice says "Not enough people read what you write" I know God is in control of the results. When the voice says "You don't matter" I know it's a lie. And this is what God helped firm up for me this past weekend.

I know I still have moments of panic, fear, and feeling unworthy but I'm growing, and those moments are fewer and further between. But this weekend is one I can look back on and know that God grew me in extraordinary ways.

I'm sharing this story over at Declare linking up with them about what God did during the conference. Please go on over and see what others are saying about how God touched them in those 24 hours as well.

12 comments:

  1. *hugs*
    I am so glad that He spoke His truth and affirmations into Your heart.
    This is awesome.

    And I loved the picture you painted of being a pilgrim-- an adventurer!
    What a beautiful slant. You totally were, my courageous friend!!

    I can't tell you how many times I have kicked myself for not asking for clarification on your name when we first met at registration so I could have hugged you right then.

    But we DID connect, and I am so glad.
    Know that I am praying for you and cheering you one as you find ways to explore the voice He has revealed to you!!

    xoxo -- Meredith

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    1. LOL It makes me smile, but it was for a purpose. I truly believe that, and don't you fret about it. No more kicking. :) God is good.

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  2. I can't wait to see where He takes you!

    So proud of you for stepping out and being a brave adventurer. I know the feeling all too well, but the good news is that it gets easier every time!

    It was wonderful to meet you in real life. Hoping for more time to chat face to face when we see each other next! :)

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    1. Yes! And thank you so much for your sweet spirit.

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  3. Oh yes. You are changed my friend. Definitely and beautifully changed and I'm looking forward to seeing how this continues to develop in you life and writing. Beautifuls!

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  4. Isn't it a game changer when the Lord, Himself, bends down and whispers truth into our hearts that no one and no thing can ever take away from us? He is truly an amazing God and I thank Him for all that He has done, is doing and will do in your life! It was so great to meet you, Stacey!
    :)

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    1. Yes. The scary part is we can still give it away or ignore it, and I'm working hard not to do that!! :) I'm so glad I was able to meet you too, Traci.

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  5. What a sacred experience, Stacey...to hear Him speak intimately to you! I can't way to see what He has in store for you! {HUGS}

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  6. Stacey, I had those negative thinking and intimidation about my blog posts in the past up until Declare Conference. God showed me how He use all the women in this modern high tech world do use their vioce through writing blogs & books ONLY TO DECLARE His greatness and goodness! Isn't that amazing truth knowing that we are part of it, too? Yes, God has not done with us yet... He is still working in you and me, and the other women too! Praise His namr and blessings, to you! (http://helengullett.com)

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    1. Thank you for dropping in Helen! We didn't speak, but I saw you with your adorable family. I appreciate your thoughts and comment here today. And yes, it is an amazing truth!!

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