Have you ever experienced that? It's not that I was wandering before I went to Declare. Things seemed to be falling in place for me particularly well, actually. But there were still some open gaps, and some mixed thinking, and I really didn't expect that to change after 24 hours. But I underestimated what God can do when we step out.
You see, it truly was stepping out for me. Not just going to the conference but talking to people. I made an effort to talk to lots of people I did not know. I took opportunities which were like climbing Mt. Everest. I know I looked like little girl lost at times, but I was an adventurer, a pilgrim, a scout, and a researcher inside.
What did God do for me at Declare? He positioned me in such a place where:
- I was allowed to see focus for my writing. He showed me who I could write for here at the blog, how I could continue my study, where it can go in the future, and what topic I could write about more often.
- I realized that wanting others to read my writing isn't necessarily about fame and fortune. It's more about the fact that God has given me something I want everyone to hear, and so the further my reach the more who can hear it.
- I was shown that believing in myself can make a difference in the smallest of things, but if I don't believe in what I am saying and what I am doing then why should anyone else.
I know I still have moments of panic, fear, and feeling unworthy but I'm growing, and those moments are fewer and further between. But this weekend is one I can look back on and know that God grew me in extraordinary ways.
I'm sharing this story over at Declare linking up with them about what God did during the conference. Please go on over and see what others are saying about how God touched them in those 24 hours as well.