I simply have to say thank you.
For not stopping time.
I know how much I wanted it to be stopped.
Yes, you secretly did in your heart.
I was proud you didn’t shout it from the mountain tops.
That wouldn’t have been fair, would it?
Not to everyone else.
I simply felt I couldn’t breathe for a little while there.
I kept thinking about what was.
Remember when they had to stop the t-ball game
so all the boys could play with the ladybug swarm?
And we first started homeschooling
and I was completely overwhelmed?
Yes. Oh, yes, I do remember those moments
and many you have forgotten.
Oh, I know.
Some I choose to forget.
Those are the times I am grateful
for the continuous march of the clock.
Funny, isn’t it?
The same thing,
yet sometimes you want me to slow it down
and other times you want me to speed it up.
I’m not always very grateful
for the moments I have.
I didn’t always appreciate him
as much as I should have.
I wish I had done more.
Letting go was much more difficult
than I thought it would be.
I thought I was ready
and you had prepared me.
Consider what it would have been had I not.
Yes, it would have been worse. Thank you.
He’s not gone forever, you know.
And that’s why I thank you
for not stopping time when I asked you to.
If you had, tomorrow would never come.
And as long as there is Today I am with you.
I know. Thank you.