The Knot and The Squirrel

Starting out can be so frustrating sometimes. Starting over can sometimes feel downright defeating. I drew this picture of a knot, yes that's what it is. It was supposed to represent how I am feeling these days.

Pulled in a variety of directions, the knot slowly tightening. Getting smaller with each pull. Spiritually, emotionally, financially, physically, educationally, relationally. It seems I am facing hurdles and struggles in every direction that life could possibly throw at me. What I have been doing is fighting a lot in a variety of directions to learn to be stronger, better, firmer. And you know what, it's been hard.

I can not seem to remember my one memory verse for Tae Kwon Do when I am standing in the group.
There is something inside of me that freaks out a little when I have to do the self defense moves.
We have fourish months left before the job is done and my faith is growing to trust that no matter what we will be okay.
I am trying to learn more about subjects which I don't know a lot about.
I am trying to keep my actions and words in a positive spin.

Sometimes it simply feels as if it is too much at one time.

But then I looked out my window and I saw my squirrel friend. He sat on the roof of the neighbor's house long enough for me to grab my camera and take a few shots (which you will see tomorrow). I don't know what one has to do with the other, but in that process I realized that when the rope is knotted it becomes stronger. A rope full of knots is bigger, thicker, and stronger than a single straight rope. Or at least, that's what makes sense in my brain.

So, as the knots keep getting pulled tighter, as I learn more and step out in new directions, and as I trust the unknown what I need to keep in mind is that it's not bad. It's simply strengthening. And thankfully I get a few moments of respite in between the pulls.