31 Days of Being Still:: Fear

If anyone knew fear it was Esther. The difference, I think, between fear and worry is with fear you know there is a possibility of something happening. Esther knew she could die. She knew that the king could choose to end her life, and so she prepared.

9 Hathak went back and reported to Esther what Mordecai had said. 10 Then she instructed him to say to Mordecai, 11 “All the king’s officials and the people of the royal provinces know that for any man or woman who approaches the king in the inner court without being summoned the king has but one law: that they be put to death unless the king extends the gold scepter to them and spares their lives. But thirty days have passed since I was called to go to the king.”

15 Then Esther sent this reply to Mordecai: 16 “Go, gather together all the Jews who are in Susa, and fast for me. Do not eat or drink for three days, night or day. I and my attendants will fast as you do. When this is done, I will go to the king, even though it is against the law. And if I perish, I perish.”

Esther prepared to face the king, and her fear, after she took time to be still before the Lord. She even asked the rest of the Jews to fast with her. The book of Esther is funny. It doesn't really speak of the Lord. I can only presume that this time she took helped to encourage her. I can only assume that God spoke peace to her during this time. But He may not have. Maybe He was silent. Maybe she waited those three days fasting and at the end of it all she knew was that she still had to go see the king. Maybe she was hoping that God would do something during that time period so that she wouldn't have to. It's all assumptions at this point. What we know is that they fasted, and then she went to see the king.

Fear is a funny thing as well. The definition doesn't help us all that much either. Real or imagined. Feeling or condition. Fear can look a lot like worry, and worry like fear. But when fear has a grip of your heart and stomach you know what it is. And in that moment we need to learn to be still and trust God fully. Whether we get days like Esther, or it is truly a single moment.

2 Therefore we will not fear, though the earth give way
and the mountains fall into the heart of the sea,
3 though its waters roar and foam
and the mountains quake with their surging.


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